My anxiety was made less having my brother in town for the week. He calms me and mows the yard - what more could you ask for.
My new chemotherapy drug is Taxol. Taxol is a member of chemotherapy drugs called plant alkaloids. Taxol is made from the bark of the Pacific Yew tree, who knew? And it works by inhibiting the dividing and replicating of fast-growing cells. As you will recall, cancer cells are hyper-fast dividing, thus are growing outta control.
The day of my chemo is always an apprehensive one for me. Just one rung higher than scared I'd say. I'm convinced this shit they are dripping into me is killing the cancer and saving my life, but knowing I'm going to chemo conjures up mixed feelings and emotions I try my best to keep at bay. And while I never want to "get use" to this, there was a routine, albeit a miserable one, created after the first eight weeks. Now with this new drug, comes new side effects, and a new routine (how long will I feel like shit, will I be nauseous, etc.).